My name is Arial and I am the author of AttackDepression.com. I am 26 years old and I have been suffering from moderate depression for most of my life.
The reason I didn't put a real picture up is because my family doesn't know I'm suffering from depression and I don't want them to find out by seeing my face on the Internet.
However that's my Yahoo Avatar and it looks pretty close to the real me, I promise. :)
Sometimes I feel weird saying I suffer from depression because most people aren't even aware that I feel sad most of the times. I've spent most of my life putting on that happy face when inside I was crying.
I have a tremendous fear of rejection so dating is pretty hard for me and I also have a hard time being myself in front of people --even people that I know very well. I constantly worry what others will think of me.
I've learned that self confidence is my biggest issue and it's kept me from enjoying close relationships.
It's affected my career too. I usually try to find jobs where I have to do as little as possible just to get by and not be noticed. I hate my current job. In fact, I dread going to it everyday and I try to avoid being social with my co-workers as much as possible.
I Have Seen Improvement
I created this site because I have found some things that are helping me out. The Secret and Eckhart Tolle's book, New Earth have really been instrumental in helping me control and learn more about my depression, anxiety, etc.
I am also a regular customer of Hypnosis Downloads. Don't let the title scare you. Hypnosis doesn't necessarily mean you go into a trance and start barking like a dog. LOL
It's simply a way of relaxing your mind and shutting off that negative chatter inside your head. It's really more like meditation.
I always wondered why meditation seems to be so effective for so many people and I've learned that when you focus on your breathe and quiet your mind, it opens up a positive energy field for you.
It also reprograms your mind and helps it stop the pattern of negative/compulsive thinking. Negative thinking has been my achilles heel in life. I just couldn't shut it off. But the books I mentioned above and meditation have me a lot.
I hope you enjoy my site and realize you don't have to use medication to relieve depression. I realize some people have chemical imbalances so medication is a must.
Just understand it only helps the symptoms. If you want to get to the root of the problem you should seek help from a professional, talk to someone, or read self help books like I've been doing. I have a collection of them that I've ordered from Amazon.com.
You can see many of them below...